Run your own race.

Over the last month I have been slowly working my way back into running. You may not believe it, but through high school I was a 3 sport athlete. Basketball was my life, while volleyball and track were something I enjoyed, so year round I was engaged. I know how to run, but after 3 knee surgeries I just haven’t run consistently for almost 20 years now (ouch, that hurt to type!).

It felt so good to get out and run again. To remember what it feels like to be winded, to feel the burn, and engage muscles I had forgotten about. Most importantly, it feels good remember what it feels like when I hit my stride and I am running my race. That moment is when I feel confident and strong, as I feel my physical and mental bodies are in tune ready to run to the ends of the earth.

I run on a trail by my house and there has been camaraderie as I am running and as people pass me and I pass them. Generally, runners give each other the thumbs up and even say, “keep it up!” However, there have been several times when women see me coming to pass them and speed up. One woman even went so far as to sprint ahead and then start walking again once she felt she was far enough ahead, only to sprint ahead again just so I could not pass her. Several woman jog faster when they see me behind them and try to run at a faster pace until I am in front of them.

No matter how many times this has happened, I am always perplexed. I keep my pace, while thinking what the hell? Don’t get me wrong, I understand competitiveness. But come on! Seriously, I am just trying to finish my couch to 5K program without injuring myself in the process. It’s about me, running my own race and finishing this dang program. Last night, the same thing happened where a woman was speeding up pace when I tried to pass her and left me wondering,

“Why is it always the women on the trail that do this?”

I thought back to the thousands of conversations I have had at various leadership conferences about women in leadership and competition. Why do we feel we need to compare? To feel like we are running in someone else’s race? Instead of focusing on our own strengths and what makes us unique, we focus on our weaknesses as compared to others.

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Instead, the best thing we could ever do for ourselves and others is to be the best version of ourselves. I know it is a journey. I’ve been there, comparing my life or career to someone else thinking they had it all figured out. What does she have that I don’t? Why is she farther in her career than I am? Why can she run faster than me? But at the end of the day, there is no “there, there,” meaning that everyone is really trying just as hard to figure out. Everyone has something that makes them feel unsuccessful or incompetent. And, you know what, no one has it all.

Until we truly become comfortable and focused on being our authentic selves, will we ever become our best selves. If we focus on sharpening our uniqueness and strengths, we will find the spaces where we can be most successful and accomplish our personal goals.

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One thing I remembered loving about running that was different from the team sports I played, was that I could compete with myself. The race I ran was mine alone.

When I step out to run, I am trying to push myself to the next place. I want to finish a 5k. I want to gain that new personal record by running faster or going farther. It’s not about anyone else but me.

So fellow women runners on the trail, just know I’m not out here to compete with you.

I’m out here for a better me.

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10 thoughts on “Run your own race.

  1. The quote you shared about competing with ourselves to become better really hit home. Competing with myself, for a while, was making me bitter. I probably didn’t speed up when other runners passed me, but I lost a lot of my focus in my first two races being distracted by how much better, faster and stronger the other runners were. I realize now that I’ve been comparing to and competing with a standard that I’ve created based on unrealistic expectations and goals that weren’t my own. It’s beyond important to see such an authentic voice in these conversations. Thank you Amber. You’ve given me some important inspiration for my next race.

    • It’s so hard to know when competition is healthy or creating destruction. I don’t mind competing, but with running it is such a person thing. Set your own goals and be awesomely you! Run your race and know I’m cheering you on all the way!

  2. Could it be that perhaps they are not trying to out-run you but think gosh if she can run faster, I should push myself too? Some are probably crazy- that’s life- ha. But I bet a few are using you to push themselves to also work harder.

    Either way- congrats on lacing up those shoes every day! Very impressive!

    KK

  3. Kudos to you for getting back into something you love! Your sentiments really resonate with me as I have been working to do more running than walking in my routine. As I do, I try really hard not to look at how fast anyone else is going on the treadmill and focus on how many seconds ahead of my own time, last time I am. I will NEVER be a fast runner or a distance runner but DAMN it does feel good to get a little better each week! Awesome posting!

    • Thanks for reading, Cathy! I am so glad to hear this resonated with you. I agree, it feels so good to get out and run or walk. Even if I don’t hit my goal for the day, I still got out there and that is better than nothing. I’m cheering you on!

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